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as it is simply too hard to talk about and I have been asked in pms and emails how Amira is doing. This hurts my heart so much to talk about

2 months ago Amira took her own life, which has left us devastated. She had been struggling ever since Dad made his journey and despite all we tried and her therapist tried, she just could not get past the devastation of losing her parents 2 times in such a short period of time.

Mom and Dad were such a blessing to her and we all thought she would finally have a life of happiness after the horror of her young life and what she had endured. I cannot imagine the burdens she always carried but could not shed and Mom and Dad making their journeys must have only made them so much worse. I and my husband and daughter did all we could, and I cannot but help to feel like we let her down and could have done more.

We are trying to come to terms with it, but is a struggle every day at this point. She is at peace now and with all her parents, which provides some comfort, but we feel like our lives have been turned upside down and just cannot get past the grief of our losses.

I think the human spirit, especially someone as young as Amira, can only take so much hurt, heartbreak, pain, suffering before the spirit breaks, and this is what Amira went thru. To see her family tortured and killed by ISIS, raped and mutilated by ISIS herself, then to lose Mom and Dad here was too much for her to endure.

She is at peace finally, reunited with all her family including Mom and Dad.

This part of why I am here, just needing to hear friendly voices that meant so much to Dad and our family. I apologize for this post if it is upsetting to some. I am not sure I will be able to talk about this much more than this post as it has me in tears.



In the Spirit of My Parents and Amira

Gentle Horse
 
The most we are capable of is love and compassion for our fellow human beings. It is such a painful and exhilarating experience.

Never forget your father's strength during the adversities he experienced. His love and compassion never faltered. Please find peace in his teachings and his strength.

I can only wish that I could ease your pain.
 
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Words cannot begin to describe the sadness I feel for you. Loss of a loved one is painful, and (in my eyes anyway) especially in one so young. I hope you can find comfort in the words of Washington Irving:
"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love."
We are here for you whenever you need or want us.
 
So very sorry to hear this news.

As others here have already said, you and yours are in our prayers. I know you are probably feeling pretty helpless about the entire situation but know that your father taught you well, and you have done everything anyone could have done in these circumstances.

You are very much a part of this online family, as is your dad. We feel your pain, and pray that you come out of this healed, and whole again.
 
Wow. Speechless! Very sorry to hear as I know how much Amira meant to your family through your dad's posts. Do not blame yourself, you did everything right and gave her love and comfort in a time of need which is more than most would do. Be at peace! Your dad is smiling down on us.
 
Philámayaye for all the kind words and thoughts. We are muddling through day by day. I wish I could say it is getting easier, but it isnt. I find myself spending more time down at Wounded Knee creek talking with Mom and Dad.
It does help that my daughter has delayed going to UGA for a year to stay home and be with us. She has been so strong for us through out this. Our extended family here on the Rez has also been there for us during this time.

Mitákuye Oyás'iŋ

In the Spirit of My Parents and Amira

Gentle Horse
 
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