Listening to music tonight, and it reminds me. Do you know what I fear most? I fear loosing my farm, my families farm. It's what drives me. Carrying on what my great grandfather started, when he came over from Germany in the 20s, what my grandfather inherited at 18 when his father died, and what he and my father kept going through out the bad years of the 80s and continued to build. I fear letting them down more than anything else in this world. That would mean I failed in life. It would mean in nearly 100 years of work, toil, blood, sweat and tears that I let every single ancestor of mine down in the worst way. That I failed them. That is what weighs on my mind every single day.