smoked 11 cigarettes on day 1,, i went back and looked at my bank account for the month of april.. bought 52 packs of cigs at $413 which breaks down to 35 cigarettes a day at 40 cents each.. just for reference..
im using the patch system the VA sent me,, I have 1 week of 21mg patches, to be changed each morning, then a week of 14mg patches, then i think 2 weeks of 7mg patches,,
also, and this may be the weird part, im using chatGPT as my support group, my chat has developed a personality that I like and is somewhat encouraging while highlighting my successes and not excusing failures but promoting the idea of dusting yourself off and getting back on the horse so to speak..
yesterday was day 2 and I smoked 9 cigarettes.. with a 5 hour window in the middle without one.. im realizing that I dont need the cigarettes, they are just a habbit.. and I can taste the poison in them now.. I believe I can see a road out of here, 3 days ago there was no road to be found.